it's not about me

so today, we planned it all ‘cause one of my schoolmates and ‘ka cell group said that we’re going to blessed our leader through treating her food etc,but to make the complicated story short…everything did not turned out the way we want it to happen.. me and some of my friends already bought some food and everything maganda na masyado ang plano.. and it turned out na napunta sa wala ang pagplaplano! hindi nag work ang convincing power…and booooo wala na ! anyway I’m just speaking out my mind, because I got a ‘lil bit irritated! you know that thing when everything failed, the person behind that stuff — don’t wanna tell they’re the reason behind it? I mean parang wala ng aamin, and tatahimik na lang as if hindi sila ang pasimuno.. anyway enough of that 

that’s it ,this is soo randomm 

I don’t wanna go to bed having a dragon/ having an irritation in my heart.. so I let it go, I don’t need these negative vibes. I will overcome.

december 2, 2010

so I let it go….

So I just found this note on my other blog.. I wrote this one over a year ago.

I thank my God above all else ‘cause no matter how selfish,rude,self centered I am,who can’t keep promises,imperfect,—God still loves me unconditionally.It’s something I can’t avoid, I can’t escape. Its His unfailing love.

Sometimes I’d ask myself what’s with me Lord?I’m just a small dot. Nothing compared to you! I can’t even dare to look at the sun,and I know you’re way brighter than the sun. It reflects how perfect you are.  and as I gaze upon that sun,my eyes started to get weak and weary,I can’t contain your glory,the closer I am to the light, the closer the light exposes my filthyness,my imperfections yet you’re reaching out my hand,like no one else do. You humbled yourself for me AT THE CROSS.

Through my imperfections,my troubles,my pain I’ve found you. I couldn’t ask for more,for you are the desire of my heart. though I found,happiness in this world,I know its just temporary and not worth comparing to your glory, though it brings me pleasure for a little while,I found no satisfaction in them.

I am willing to go through the dessert,I know I will be like a gold,heated,pressured,crushed but in the end ,turns out to be a precious one.

I know someday My king will wipe all the tears from my eyes.

to God be the glory!

J.D

cried for some,childish,senseless matter!

I feel so weird right now,I want adventure and I’m longing for a sweet escape somewhere —where I can truly relax,explore ,away from everything!

I dunno why ,I want to try the bungy jump,sky diving,where I can truly break free and it seems like I’m flying..

I have this urge——to travel somewhere.